They say you learn from home. I learn that I should never choose my friends over my family. Such sad lives we lead if the only important matter to us is our friends. Appreciate your parents more. You might never know that they cry every night thinking of you. They sacrifice their lives, dream and ambition to raise you up.
My mum sacrificed her dream of being a successful accountant because she wants to spend time with her children at home. But how would you repay her? It's just not right.
I live by my dad's words everyday. You will always have your family to fall back to. Your friends? Well, maybe sometimes but not all the time.
It makes me sad that you treat us like nothing. You choose them over us. As if we're a bunch of people that you only live with. Nothing more.
I have never thought of being in such situation. Maybe he was right. You can't expect everyone to treat you the way you want them to. The perception of other people about some issues aren't always the the same. Life isn't always the norm. But why ? Why do we have to go to that extend?
Mocking. Bad mouth. Teasing. Maybe it was funny initially. But it's not anymore. Not when the actions could either temporarily or permanently hurt someone. In or out. I try to let it pass by as if I was numb, not feeling anything. But who am I to kid ? I am just a human living in such an enormous world. I wake up and tell myself, such is life. Life that is made my people's opinions.
There are a few things I hate in my life. I hate people criticizing or judging the music I listen to. I hate people dissing me about liking celebrities too much. I hate people commenting on the shows I watch. I live my own life. You don't like it ? None of my freaking problem.
You know the feeling when you listen to a song and realize that it's a song that suits you the best ? Well I've never really had those kind of moments without listening to the lyrics closely. I tend to print out the lyrics of a song then act as if the lyric is the story of my life.
The point of me saying this is, last month, I started watching this Korean drama called Dream High and ever since I got addicted (I'm on the second season now and it's quite good). So there's a character in the drama named Kim Pil Suk. It's played by this singer called IU. I'm having a major girl crush on her but that's going to have to be in another post.
Anyways, her character caught my attention since the first episode and due to some self confidence issue, I'll leave it disclosed as to why she's my favourite character. In her school audition, she sang this song called Someday. Eventhough it was sang in Korean, I still like how the song goes. It was so out of my context because I never like or love a song too much without knowing what's the lyric.
It's like a fresh new air and someway, somehow I feel related to the song. Fast forward a few weeks after I heard (and possibly memorize) the song, I decided to Google the meanings of the songs. The result ? I was gobsmacked. I never knew the song that I love so much is actually what I am always feeling.
I know I probably sound like some emotional person (I really am, trust me), but it really did surprise me. Listen to the song below and read the translations in English.
PS, it's an A+ that IU and Wooyoung looks so cute both in here and the show :)
Hello ! How have you been ? I've some news to tell you. Whoever you are.. It's not like people read this anyway. So let's just start of with how has the few months been to me, okay ?
It has been...deadly. I don't know if you really know what I mean by deadly. I mean it definitely wasn't that interesting. Except for some events here and the. I had tuition classes all week so I couldn't do anything much. But I honestly don't mind because I prefer to stay at home rather than go out. Hence why I'm regularly addressed as the 'loner' in my family.
The story I wrote ? I threw it away because honestly. it broke my own heart writing it. What I wrote was too sincere and it was what I longed for for a really long time. So yeah.
Moving on, I deleted my Twitter so there's no other way for you to contact me other than by text, iMessage, Skype or Liveprofile. That is IF I feel like replying. I'm in sort of a recovery phase right now. The past week has been quite emotional and exhausting for me. So I really hope you would understand and respect my decision of not replying to you. I will reply when I have the strength to. I don't hate you lol.
Since I deleted my Twitter, I'm hoping I'd get more active on here and spend more time studying rather than be bothered about other people's life. Plus I'm going to watch lots more Korean TV shows and some movies.
And I'm planning on writing about the things I have to improve. I'll post another archive on that later on. Thank you !
